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Love

Love is a verb. You can’t just say it. You got to show it.

Sometimes, you don’t even know what is keeping you going, to love.

Sometimes, you don’t even know why you love or why you’re feeling this way.

Sometimes, love is tiring, especially when you rely on yourself.

Sometimes, genuine love hurts you more, because you put in more effort.

I kept asking myself, why do i keep investing on someone whom won’t be in my LG or even service.

The answer is Your love. It keeps me going even though i know i may not be the one.

You helped me to realised that, especially in JC, conversion isn’t everything. Genuine love is.

I don’t know why, but JC is the group which helped me to understand that conversion is not everything because everyone demonstrates love, they show it. Not force it nor pretend to love. What matters most, is being the link of each person’s life connected to God. It’s not how many you converted, it’s how many you’ve touched. Besides, it’s not even you who converts, it’s God.

I hate to force people to convert, because i used to be forced too. I understand the feeling. And i am sure that in the end, the reason i converted was purely because of God. He touched me through worship. When people tell me they can’t feel His love, it breaks my heart. And i simply don’t understand why they can’t feel it. Everything was there. The Bible, the evidences, the work was done, the lives changed, testimonies. Just not the moment when Jesus really suffered and died literally infront of them.

I can’t entirely put myself into their shoes because i just can’t understand why they don’t believe. HAHA, i’m mad, i know. Father, can you rewind my life and let me taste the feeling of not believing you first? Because i really want to put myself in their shoes. I kept asking myself why i believed You. The answer was love. It’s just LOVE. Oh man, now i don’t know why issit love. ARGH FATHER HELP ME!~

No Facebook, no Youtube.

I think i’m dying without these. Even twitter also can’t be used. And tudou is a poor substitution for youtube. Sigh.

Either there’s a problem with my brother or starhub. And i seriously think i can survive without a computer, but can’t survive with a computer without fb/youtube/twitter. Though i don’t use twitter, but it’s the only substitute for fb.

God, you gotta help me solve things with your means and not mine. I hate to admit i got to rely on you..

I realised what’s the reason which kept me going even though i’m investing on someone who won’t be in my LG. This leads to my next post.

Seriously, stop judging.

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Genuine

I love genuine people.

I miss those genuine friendships.

I want to change those non-genuine friendships to genuine friendships, but this can’t be one-sided.

I love genuine opinions.

I love to give genuine opinions too.

If there’s no such thing as judgemments and hurt.

I want to have a genuine heart.

I know of people with a genuine heart, and I envy them.

I want to treat others genuinely, as well as the other way round.

I love God.

Because He is genuine.

So many yet so little.

So many things i need to appreciate.

So many things i’ve missed out.

So many things to make up.

So many things i need to do.

So many decisions to make.

So many choices to choose from.

So many doubts.

So many rubbish.

So many treasures.

So many friendships.

So many broken friendships.

So many people.

So many unsaved lives.

So much memories.

So much time;

So little time.

So much of everything, so little of anything. God, you gotta help me maximise whatever you gave me.

Including Yourself.