Humility

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Humility is a value or simply a word that is overused. We sometimes use it for affirmation; criteria of a character. But i think humility is an innate thing. Maybe it’s true that people will grow and change, to become more humble. But my stand is still natural.

Maybe i’m judgemental, but i believe there is such thing as fake humility. Right now, humility this word to me has different degrees. 1st – Innate Humility. It means somehow God put this true humility in someone. Whether the person knows it or not, it doesn’t matter. And this degree of humility is rare and precious. Nothing you do can improve this magnitude of humility, neither could you deplete it. It is that precious.

2nd - Moulded Humility. I believe that along the journey of life, things happen to mould you. But whether your response to these things mould you to become more humble or less humble, only God knows. Maybe one is not very humble at the start, but at the end of the day, he or she may have gained some humility from experiences or was influenced to learn to be more humble than before. Maybe one can be humble already right from the start (take note that this is not innate humility, this is seeing humility in others and didn’t have much pride to begin with). But at the end of the day, that person’s humility may be depleted due to change of heart and be influenced by evil thoughts. See the difference between Moulded Humility and Innate Humility? One can be eroded, while the other can’t.

3rd – Fake Humility. The reason why it’s fake is quite linked to the 1st and the 2nd. Just like the 2nd one, he or she can watch someone being humble at the side before really practicing humility (yeah you can imagine that person being very young). But unlike the 1st one, he or she does not have that natural instinct to be humble. Yet above 2nd and 1st, that person chose to not instill real humility into himself or herself. And this kind of humility doesn’t last. And definitely, this kind of humility doesn’t come from God and isn’t the kind of humility that He wants us to have. Some of us may fall into this intangible trap.

The issue here is not to start observing people and start differentiating them into categories, because sometimes you may have Fake Humility which you yourself don’t know. I once doubted myself about this, not that i have an answer now, but i guess like many things, only you go to Heaven then can ask God. But right now, i guess many of us fall in the 2nd type. I mean even if you are the 1st type, you won’t even know. So why not just give the benefit of the doubt and assume that you still have room to grow to be more humble? No harm “growing” anyway.

Humility is a tricky thing. And to learn and grow, the only way and the quickest way (i believe) is when God humbled you Himself. I mean everyone has some pride, so humans can’t humble humans.

“Humility is not thinking less of yourself , but thinking of yourself less.” - just like this quote, i believe that when you acknowledge this and start practicing humility, regardless of whether God created you already humble or not, at the end of the day, you will be humbled by Him.

I just want to encourage those who annoint people for their character, live life with these people, maybe you won’t get to know their true humility, but just never ever hear it from others. If you have to, go to the ground level to live life with these people, then will you not be blinded by mere “up-value” affirmations.

God is AMAZING!

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When i woke up yesterday knowing it’s a Saturday, a day which i always look forward to, i know there’s something different about that Saturday. Even when i’m meeting my LG for lunch, i just feel different. I lost my appetite (and i blamed the rice). After entering the auditorium, during prayer meet, i sense strongly that God wants to tell me something about what i had been asking him for the past few days.

Then it was praise, the 1st few tunes i heard, i teared immediately. Not that it’s my favourite praise song, but i just felt His presence filling up my heart. At 1st i felt unworthy, then it was Love, then it was just a girl who wants more from God. She just wants the Father to tell her what’s wrong. She wants Him to fill the emptiness inside, just want a word from Him. She continued to cry after the next praise song, still crying during worship. She doesn’t know why she’s crying. She only felt the very real One. The last time i got this feeling was 2010 Hope conference. But the context was different. This time, God revealed Himself so timely again as if He’s telling me “You just got to believe me”. He convinced me during Sermon. This year, i just learnt so so much about Him when i truly set my mind and heart to read about Him. Thank God i started reading. Or else, even when the Sermon was preached yesterday, i wouldn’t feel as convicted as now.

You know, i love debates. I love it when my opponent has that “i give up, you win” face. But i hate debating when i can’t convince my opponent, as if i’m not fully convinced myself about my own arguments. Then PJ taught about Titus which i quite like the book, and he mentioned about correcting in truth and in love.

I can’t be the Lion, never want to be in fact. But i have to, with Him. I truly dislike debating with knowledgeable people, because i know my language itself already sucks. But God taught me something. It’s not about how knowledgeable you are or how well you speak, it’s about speaking in truth and in love. One can be like the warped person who just want to debate for the sake of debating, but the truth is the TRUTH! If he can share about the truth, that’s great for the LG! But if he distorts the Truth, then that’s when a Lion comes in. Lion gives me an impression that someone got to be the “bad guy”.

I’m always afraid to strain relationships/ leave a bad impression unto others/ offend others/ judge others. We are all judgemental freaks whether you accept it or not. But sometimes, some things you can’t assume either. I guess only when you grow in Him and gain more wisdom from Him, you can discern your assumption better. Then God also revealed to me that you can only speak the Truth only when you know the Truth. So i must invest much time in the WOG! Not to correct people, but to convince myself about the Truth and to understand why is it the Truth!

God is really real in my life. He always speaks to me only after i read about Him. I’m serious. He gave me a new direction this time. I’m still waiting for the full picture though. Meanwhile, today is the last day i would REALLY MUG, until maybe 10 months later? And i’m restricting myself from Fastfood from tmr onwards [ Yes, including kfc porridge :( ]! Then i’ll be running eveyday, sometimes twice a day. For Grad Night, for my health, for my future LOL. If Ris Low can lose 8kg within 2 weeks just by eating an apple a day, i can lose at least 4 kg within 2 weeks just by exercising and eating healthily, right? =)

P.S. Full court is the best when you play with people you enjoy playing with. But i miss my favourites.

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